A bit of reflection
I feel like I've been feeling more sensitive lately. Been picking up more on small fluctuations and changes in everything and everyone, and often times I end up feeling anxious or nervous or worried about it. It's been an issue with me for a long time and I know I've made improvements with it, though it still feels a bit stronger than usual from time to time. I have to remind myself that growth is not linear, and I have made progress that I can recognise and reflect on.
I've also been feeling a bit more all over the place lately with interests and things I spend time on. Reading up on tarot resources, trying to get back into getting started with solo RPG and trying to learn WFRP 4e, making more progress with my main conlang again for Lexember, playing A Link Between Worlds on my 3DS again, etc. This unfortunately meant that I also spent less time with hobbies that I told myself I wanted to spend more time with, like practicing the harmonica and learning to crochet. My mind wants to latch onto more things than I have the time for, with my current lack of time management. I think I should try to approach it with a little bit more structure in mind so that I will be able to set some time aside for each thing I want to do, no matter how small the slot of time is. I should just show up to it regularly, even if that means some things will only get 5 minutes of my day. That way, I can learn to be more consistent with each of the things I want to be doing.
I've also been taking less care of myself, and that's not good. What is good is the fact that I am recognising that that is happening. With that in mind, I can try to make efforts to care for myself more, a little bit every day.
Here's an image I took with my New3DSLL back at the start of November of a steamed corn street-side stall that I quite like. I wanted to share this somewhere somewhen and never found a good opportunity to so now that I've returned to posting here, I'll just stick it here in this post.
You got this, Rana!